NYE problems

Hello :) NYE is approaching fast, isn't it? Well, like in all crucial moments I found so many problems and I think writing them down will help me see the bigger picture. So here I go. I told you about a party last year and I wasn't sure if I should go or not. (Post here. I actually recommend you to read it because it's the same situation.) Anyway, that same group is celebrating NYE together and I'm, again, kinda invited. To sum up the post in the link: they're older than me, we know each other but do not hang out, I wasn't invited by the host (again) and it's kinda small and private party. So, after a lot of thinking about it, I decided to go. If you really knew me, you would know this is a major and huge (yes, that big) step for me. I find reasons not to go every few minutes - from not knowing to dance to being problematic with food,... But I don't really want to spend NYE at home so I try to fight myself and convince myself to go. So far, I have no idea which one of me is winning. Never mind. In case that I do go, I have to wear something. I have to put on make-up. I have to do something with my hair. (I don't have to. I want to.) And I have nothing. I tried on all my dresses right now and non of them fit me anymore. Great. We kinda have dress code so I should wear a dress. (It's friendly gathering and nobody is making me wear a dress, but girls are all together on this and I don't want to stand out. That's me.) Now, my only hope is that my tailor is home tomorrow and she'll make my dress fit me in like 3 hours. And I washed my hair two days ago. And it's starting to get greasy but not so much. But too much to go like that. And I refuse to wash it often as I'm training it to grease less (if that's possible). And I know I'll wash it tomorrow but I'll hate it. And shoes. I don't have heels to go with this dress. I'm doomed. I know these are basically lame problems, but for me, in this time of the year, they're a big deal. And the make-up problem. Should I go with the dark red lipstick? Or just red? Or nude? Should I highlight my eyes or my lips? No make-up? Oh my God!! Why am I so stressing about it? 

To calm me down, talk a bit about your plans for NYE. Hair, make-up, outfit, place, people,... Comments below.

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I have no idea.

Expectations for 2016

As this year is coming to an end, we're all expecting new one. Of course, there comes big fuss with it - where to be on the New Year's eve, with whom, what to wear,... But, there's also a morning after. Most of people sleep through that 1st of January but there has to be a point where you realize you've started a whole new year. And if you're young and hopeful (not necessarily, but usually) you have this big plan for new year. From simple wishes that 2016 will be better than 2015 to specific wishes and goals. Well, I have mine too. Mine are usually the same because I never do anything (I hate myself) but here's my list.

• New 2016 will be better than the 2015. It has to be. Not that my year was so bad, but I tend to remember bad stuff more than the good ones, so...
• To lose weight and get my body in shape. I've lost a lot of my previous weight and I'm kinda proud of myself but I'm not really satisfied with the way I look.
• Get a tattoo. Small one. I already have one in mind. Last year I pierced my ears which was also a huge step for me so this is a year for an even bigger step.
• I'll get my driver's licence. This is actually a done deal because I have some small amount of hours to drive and then I have to pass the exam and that's it. So I hope I'll pass it.
• Get my nail designer licence. I already have one but there's this girl who teaches the best course in my country so I hope I'll get her licence.
• I'll be more outgoing. I won't. I know it. But I wish to be.
• I'll finish college. This is also kinda a done deal since I only have few more months of it but I still need to pass everything.
• I'll travel more. I discovered those cheap one-day trips to places near me so that would be a perfect start for me. Hopefully, I'll see some other countries. The only problem are my friends and family who are not so excited about traveling as I am so I have no travel buddies.
• And I hope that I'll be able to share all of the above with my special someone (so I need to find someone first haha).
• I hope I'll make my parents proud. And my brother. And grandparents, and friends,...
• The most important wish of mine is to become stronger, to build my self esteem. Yes, I hope I'll do that. At least that.

What are your New Year resolutions? Do you have any? Do you think this is stupid? Comment below!

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Is it really?

My grandparents - mom's side

Hello :)

So the saga continues... You can find my previous posts about my family on the right under label "Family and Friends" (So far, I've written about my mom, dad, brother and friends with whom I've grew apart.)

So, my grandparents... Where to start about the people who were actually more like your parents first part of your life? I was with them most of the time before I started school as my mom and dad worked and my grandparents were retired. (God, I miss those times...) Anyhow. My grandma. She is generous and really hardworking woman! She holds everything together, she manages everything. And I admire her for that. But! She thinks she is the smartest person on the planet; she knows everything. I'm not saying she's stupid, but there are things she knows nothing about and still tries convince everybody she's right. And that's so freaking annoying. She is also a bit racist and can't really stand any other religion than ours. (I said a bit racist because she dislikes every other race but wouldn't say anything to people or wouldn't throw anything at them. Get it?) This is so wrong, I know, but it's hard to change old people's opinion after 70+ years. As she gets older, she gets more flaws. She thinks a lot about her past and you can see she is deeply hurt by some things that happened a really long time ago. I think that defines her more than anyone thinks. She tries. And now, my grandpa. Oh, wow. He really had a tough life. He finished 4 high schools just because his family couldn't afford him going to college and he was such a great student. This brings tear to my eyes every time I remember it. Also, going to see his family always reminds me of what he had to go through to get to school/town. He grew up in a small wooden house with 8 more brothers and sisters. They had to get up around 5 o'clock every morning to take care of the animals (village stuff) and to get to school by 8. His 2 brothers were killed in a war, his sister drowned. So far, he lost 6 of his siblings. Now, when I think about hard life - he's lived it. And, after all of this, he's the sweetest person ever! He's loved by everyone. And he really should be. Not to get all mushy, I love my grandparents, of course. They would give anything for me and my brother. And my mom, of course. They try so hard to make us happy and I feel so bad for not spending more time with them, but over the years they became so hard to be around. They fight a lot and they're stubborn as hell. So, I don't really like spending 2 weeks alone with them as I used to. So, that sucks and I hate myself for not calling that often, but I do hope they know I love them. A lot.

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I love you.

It's Christmas!! | 2015

Hello everyone!

I wish you all merry Christmas!

I wish you peace and joy!

I wish you all have cakes and cookies and lots of food to really enjoy these winter holidays!

I wish you to spend your holidays with your loved ones!

I wish you all the best!

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Merry Christmas guys!

Christmas cookies - easy recipe

Hello lovely readers!

Before I begin, I have to say I'm not a natural cook - I don't cook or bake at all. But! It's Christmas and I decided it would be nice to make an effort and contribute to our festive table. So, I went to find the easiest recipe I could. And it worked out perfectly!

You'll need:

• 1 stick (4 oz) of softened butter (11,3 dkg butter)
• 1 cup of sugar (12,8 dkg sugar)
• 1 large egg
• 1 teaspoon of vanilla bean paste (optional)
• 2 cups of all purpose flower (25,6 dkg rough flower)
• 1/2 teaspoon of baking powder
• pinch of salt

Preparation:

• melt butter to the room temperature
• mix/beat butter with sugar until you get the smooth mixture
• add egg and vanilla and mix it again until all of it combines
• add all the other ingredients
• form a dough and leave it in the refrigerator for about half an hour
• roll out the dough to be thick around 0,5 cm to 1 cm
• get your molds and have fun creating different shapes
• get your cookies on the cooking paper and put everything in the preheated oven (350°F or 175°C)
• bake for around 10-15 minutes until you get the golden color

If you need to see it, here's the whole video about it:

• https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YvsmZ82vxKc

There are videos about decoration too:

• decoration - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tGjr_EYoM10
• royal icing - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HxQaXufulBs

This is really simple and easy recipe with delicious outcome!

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Christmas songs (part 2)

Hello once again. I'm here today to continue my list of favorite Christmas songs. Of course I'll forget something, but these are on my main playlist.

1. John Lennon - Happy Christmas. Let's look back on the year that just passed and think about all that's happened. Hopefully, you're satisfied with it. Now it's time to relax and enjoy the holidays. And remember: wars are over! Please! We are all equal! Please!
2. Little Drummer Boy. I have no idea who plays this so I chose a random one. Don't worry if you don't have money. Christmas shouldn't be about money. It's about giving love and peace to the world. Giving a piece of yourself is the greatest gift you can give.
3. Mariah Carey - All I Want For Christmas Is You. Oh, gotta love Mariah. And we can't have Christmas without love. So, I hope you all have your better halfs next to you. I hope you're in love. I hope you love and you're loved.
4. Mariah Carey - Santa Clause Is Coming To Town. I love love love this intro. Be careful what you do over the year as it will all come right back at you. Do good and they'll treat you good. (It's hard to believe this in this world, but that's how it should be.) I hope you get good presents.
5. My Christmas Tree. You have probably heard this one in Home Alone 2 movie. I mean, this is a soundtrack to the most popular Christmas movies. Gotta love it at least for that. And it is about the greatest thing in the whole year - decorating a Christmas tree. When you see it, you'll feel home. And that's the best feeling.
6. Silent Night, Holy Night. They say it's an original version, sang by Christy Lane. I've loved this one since I was a kid. It's a religious church song but it's so emotional. So gentle and heart warming. This is the night everything should be only spiritual, without everyday problems and money and other stuff; just love, understanding, happiness.
7. We Wish You A Merry Christmas. I don't know what to say about this one. Marry Christmas.
8. Wham - Last Christmas. One more love song over here. Well, you fooled me once, I'm not doing that again. Christmas time is special and shouldn't be wasted on the people who don't deserve it. It's Christmas and we should all be carefree.
9. Hurts - All I Want for Christmas Is New Year's Day. I only found out about this song recently and it's on replay the whole time. It's a sad anti-Christmas song, actually. This guy feels lonely and he doesn't like the year behind him. Christmas is only reminding him of that. All he wants is a fresh start in a new year. I can relate so bad. So I love it!

As I'm done with this list, I ask you to write down (in the comments below) your favorite Christmas songs. What do you listen? Why do you like them?

And here's a 4 hour playlist for the best Christmas mood ever (it's not my list). Enjoy.

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Today: 16.12.2015.

Doing: wrapping Christmas gifts - yaaaay (should be studying, of course)

Mood: so far so good; can't be bad around Christmas presents

Favorite person: Maggie is pretty high on the list

Thinking about: exams I'm not studying for and what to get my brother for Christmas

Missing: good ideas I used to have when presents are supposed to be bought (I only actually need two more ideas but they're so making me nervous)

Loving: wrapping paper and Christmas songs, being home alone right now

Hating: not having a present for my brother (I'm just going in circles with this, right?)

New discovery: I can cut classes without feeling guilty (not that you should practice that!)

Listening to: Lines and Colours - Dear Santa (new song!! and I'm totally addicted) - big plus: they're Croatian

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Christmas songs (part 1)

Christmas is coming soon and I think it would be a good time to post some festive music up here. 

1. Andy Williams - It's The Most Wonderful Time Of The Year. This is such a simple song about happiness in the times of Christmas. This is my favorite Christmas song! Love ones are all we need.
2. Bing Crosby - White Christmas. I love this song since there is a version in my language too, but I also love it because it's kinda a song of my friendship with a very special person in my life (among other songs...). We all want snow and white holidays. And this video is just perfect!
3. Bobby Helms - Jingle Bell Rock. Now, we need some fast and fun songs too, right? Just dance people!!! We need more happiness. And you probably know it from Mean Girls. Also a good movie to watch.
4. Brenda Lee - Rockin Around Christmas Tree. This song explains everything people should be doing on Christmas and around that date. We should be happy, in love, eating, drinking, dancing... We should be all together.
5. Jose Feliciano - Feliz Navidad. You don't have to speak Spanish (??) to understand the joyful message here. This song is so so so catchy and you will not be able to stop singing it. This simple song has the only message people should have for each other.
6. Frank Sinatra - Have Yourself A Merry Little Christmas. I'm not a big Sinatra fan, but his voice in Christmas spirit seems so great! I think this is very sad song, even though it sings about all troubles being gone during holidays. This melody and his voice are making my heart melt.
7. Frank Sinatra - Let It Snow. This is a Christmas (more winter than Christmas, but fine) love song. This is my favorite song when I see first snowflakes falling; I don't usually listen to it on Christmas. Nothing can't stand in the way of love!
8. Jingle Bells. The first Christmas song every kid learns. And it stays with you forever!!

There are more coming in the next post!

Christmas present ideas

I've written about this the other day but I was limited to only what I would like to get. Now I'm going to make a list of ideas for every person. If you're struggling with ideas, here are some and I hope this will be helpful. Here we go.

• jewelry

This is mostly a present for women but guys like it too. Necklaces, bracelets, rings,... Fake or real. Anything goes. If you engrave something, that's only going to be a big plus. Get sentimental and creative. Also, you can buy that bracelet with rings for different pendants.

• watches

I know these are usually expensive but there are nice looking cheap watches too (especially if you're looking on the Internet - eBay, Amazon, etc.) Also, not all watches have to be some world wide known brand. And this is especially good gift if you're buying it for a male person.

• winter clothes

Of course you're not gonna buy T-shirt for this weather (or would you?) so a nice sweater is what everybody needs. Coats and jackets are a bit more expensive but if you're buying it with someone or you just have the money, go for it.

• winter accessories

There's not a person who is not cold at one point. So scarves, gloves and hats can come in handy. These can also come in a set so you don't have to think if you're matching it right.

• men accessories

Every man needs belts and ties. Go though their closet and see what kind of pants they have to pick out the belt to go with them all. Also, looking at their suit and shirts should be helpful with picking a tie. If you can't look at their closet, just go with the safest choice - black and simple.

• lighters

It may seem stupid but if the person is a smoker (or just likes to collect lighters) this is a perfect gift (assuming you'll find a nice one). And maybe you can engrave some special message. Also, try finding the one which can be recharged so it will never be thrown away.

• puzzles and toys

Great for young people and the ones who feel young. Try to find some motive that represents that person - aircraft, nature, cartoons, some city,... There's an endless list. If you're extra creative, create a photo by yourself and give it to be turned into puzzles (some shops for developing pictures and copying have that). Toys are great if you have an inside joke about something or you just know a person will love it.

• figurines

Most of people have some free space in the living room and that would be a perfect place for some little statue (the same as puzzles - endless list).

• office supplies

This is a bit weird present but if you know a person loves papers or works in an office, they can never have enough of those.

• linen

Maybe that's just me but I really like having matching pillow case and blanket or quilt. Also, there are linen with prints so you can, once again, find something for everyone.

• sport equipment

If a person is sporty you can't go wrong with sport clothes and accessories (like mat or water bottle) or even with some vitamins and muscle builders (but make sure you know what you're buying there).

• bags

A girl can't have to many bags so go for it. And guys need their briefcases or backpacks.

• books

Be careful with this one as the person may like the specific genre or they already have that book. But, in general, this is a good gift if a person is a reader. If you're not sure, don't buy them books.

• CDs

I know CDs are almost not in use anymore, but if you know somebody's favorite singer/band this should be a good gift. Records are also a great gift as they have that vintage vibe in them. The bad side of it is the person will most likely never hear the songs, but it will look great on the wall.

• beauty products

A present for both men and women. Shower gels, creams, nail polishes, hair products, perfumes,... All of these are basically essentials and everybody needs it. This is one of those safe choices.

• DIYs

This should be the most perfect gift as the person will see you know them really well and you put your time and effort into this present. This includes: prints on T-shirts, handmade bookmarks and posters, jewelry, puzzles mentioned above, decorations,...

• tickets

Tickets are great gifts! If there's some singer/show coming into town and you know somebody is dying to see them, the solution is really simple - get them tickets. Tickets are usually available long time before the show so you shouldn't have a problem getting them. Sport games, concerts, stand-up comedies, movie premieres,... Only make sure to buy two tickets as nobody wants to go alone.

* As I'm in a really good mood and I love buying Christmas presents, if you want me to, I'll find you a perfect present. Write down in the comment section who you are buying it for and something about that person (inside jokes, hobbies,... anything). Also, if you like any ideas from my list you can say so and I'll try to find few items (e.g. you like watches and I'll find you few great and not so expensive watches online or in the stores).

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Today: 9.12. 2015.

Doing: OMG I've been to college - I left at half past 6 this morning and I came home at about 7 p.m.

Mood: beaten, tired, pissed off, nervous, calm at most of the times (weird?)

Favorite person: Matt, as usual

Thinking about: tomorrow and Friday (big exam coming up)

Missing: the good old days when my biggest problem was how to dress my doll

Loving: new surprises every day from my advent calendar (chocolate and jewelry)

Hating: that my hair didn't turn out as I hoped it would (I did braids on wet hair and slept on them - I woke up looking like Afro with a really bad hair day)

New discovery: I'm weirded out by my new discovery so I'll keep it to myself for a little while

Listening to: Carrie Underwood - I'll stand by you

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Welcome December!

Hello :) I've been absent for a while and I wasn't able to welcome December on the first day but, thank God, we still have some time before the big day so we can discuss presents!

Personally, I think you can't really go wrong with anything; if you remember me and get me something, I'm gonna appreciate it. And everybody should. There are some presents that never get old: diary, photo album, candles, chocolate of any kind, figurines,... I know all of this is mostly useless these days, but it looks good, it's cheap and it's just that little thing we should be giving for Christmas. Although me and my family took Christmas presents to another level, it should be something small; just to mark that day. Of course I have a lot of wishes, but, in case my friends don't have any ideas, here's something from my list:

• coloring book - I know I'm almost 21 but I love coloring. But! I want something pretty like Disney princess or flowers or teddy bears. I don't want those new cartoon characters that scare me every time I see them. Or I would like that new adult-coloring book.
• calendar - I have a calendar for 2015 but it's almost over and I'm in a need of a new one. Since I'm in love with New York, that's the most perfect theme for my calendar.
• pajamas - I don't know why but I love buying pajamas in December. That's usually my mom's choice and she picks out great ones. I don't expect my friends to buy me clothes.
• anything with New York - I stated above that I love that city so anything with the motive of it is great for me (especially Brooklyn Bridge).
• nail polishes - As I have almost every color in my inventory, it's hard to buy some I don't already own but I won't mind having them double. Also, all nail art supplies are welcome too.

Anyhow, (I had no plan when I started this), there are lots of things you probably want/need but hold on for a second. Just stop everything and enjoy December!

If you have any ideas for presents I would love to hear them (comment below) as I have to buy lots of them this year and I don't have that many ideas.

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Want it all !!