Things I spend most money on

I've written before about my wishlists and how I love this or that, but there are some things I spend more money on than others. This, however, doesn't mean I'm willing to pay more for e.g. some bag, it means I'll buy more of them. Get it? Here we go.

• bags

I buy relatively affordable/cheap bags that really last me forever cause I'm constantly changing them and not wearing one all the time. In my eyes, you can't have enough bags. They all differ in sizes, colors and shapes and I love to be prepared for any outfit and occasion.

• shoes

I really didn't realize this one cause I have quite a lot of heels which I rarely wear, but then I counted all of my shoes, including flip-flops, sneakers, boots, heels and all other models. I had 31 pair of foot wear and since then I bought few more. In my defense, all of these were quite cheap and I would never give a lot of money on something I know I'll get more and won't wear as often. The only pairs that are more expensive are my sneakers I wear 99% of the time and winter boots.

• sunglasses

I have only one pair of real sunglasses, branded. I told you I've bought my Ray Ban glasses with my first paycheck ever and I was so happy. I had to work whole month just for a pair of glasses, but I think it was worth it. Other than those, I have about 5 pairs of ordinary sunglasses from everywhere.

I think this is it. Have in mind I'm really not bragging here, I just realized this (as I was thinking about buying these cute pink sunglasses) and thought it would be fun to write it down. Also, really, I'm a student and I have no money, my parents aren't wealthy so almost all of these stuff cost around $15 - $20. Really.

What are your weaknesses when it comes to shopping? How many bags/shoes/sunglasses do you have?

TVD era has ended!

Hello. For all of us TVD fans, an era has come to an end. I'm writing this just now because I actually just watched the last episode. I've written one other post mentioning this show, but I never really talked about it. I won't go into much detail cause that would seriously be too long. I'm just gonna write down some of my thoughts. Also, have in mind I'm not a freak fan and I forgot some things, but that's OK. Also, this list has no order.

• As written in my linked post, I was on team Damon since the first scene.
• Stefan is the ultimate good character.
• Alaric and Caroline were the weirdest "couple" ever. He was their teacher at one point.
• Caroline and Klaus were great together. I loved the development of Klaus when he was with her. Also, that note in the lase episode - how cute!
• Katherine was so freaking annoying.
• I actually really liked Kai.
• Lexi and Stefan were great (friends) together. Seeing them together in the end makes me really happy.
• I missed Tyler.
• I never missed Jeremy.
• Jeremy and Bonnie were a weird couple.
• I'm so glad Matt didn't turn out to be anything supernatural.
• I'm also glad Matt got to know his history and heritage.
• Friendship between Bonnie and Damon was just great.
• Alaric and Damon were also great together.
• I'm kinda sad that Stefan didn't have friends like Damon had Rick and Bonnie.
• Stefan and Caroline were a weird couple at first, but I really liked them together.
• I loved the friendship between Damon and Liz Forbes.
• The plot with Salvatore mother was so boring and unnecessary. It only made the brothers sad. I also hated the whole "family" that came with her.
• I really liked the original family, especially Elijah (and Klaus, of course).
• Relationship between Elena and Damon since they start dating evolved so much.
• I think Damon is the character who has grown the most.
• My most memorable line is, of course, "Hello brother."
• One of my favorite scenes is when Damon compels Elena to forget when he told her he loves her for the first time and she was still with Stefan. (S02E08)
• First love scene with Stefan and Elena was more intense than first Damon and Elena moment (and I call myself a Delena fan...) (S01E10)
• I'd love to go on a road trip with Damon.
• I'd love to have a glass of bourbon with Damon.
• I never understood why Damon and Stefan haven't seen each other for 15 years before the show starts. They love each other to death.
• Couples I also liked are Caroline and Tyler, also Matt and Rebekah.
• "When people see good, they expect good. And I don't want to have to live up to anyone's expectations." (S03E19) This is the moment when Delena kinda starts, and I love the quote.
• The number of good things Damon did for Elena, Stefan and the rest of the gang that went uncredited is too big.
• That's one awesome Salvatore mansion.
• Becoming a vampire is supposed to be very difficult and painful process, yet Caroline had no problems.
• Somewhere in the season 2, Damon says he'll gladly let Bonnie die if he has to, but that friendship came out to be one of the strongest in the show.
• Damon stepping in and dancing with Elena was the cutest thing ever. (S01E19)
• Enzo and Bonnie are great together. (S07E19)
• Enzo and Damon are great together too...
• I never missed Elena. I was so glad she was gone.
• My ultimate favorite thing about this show is the love between Salvatore brothers.
• Last name "Salvatore" sounds so royal.
• One last bonus fact: I cried during last episode. Which I also have mixed feelings about - ending with narration and everybody dying?? Also, why are they all parting their ways if they can all be together after death?

There you have it - 40 thoughts on The Vampire Diaries. Thank you for 8 seasons and 171 episodes.♥

Have you watched the show? What are your thoughts?Most importantly, are you team Damon or team Stefan? #teamSalvatorebrothers

comment below :)

I know there are SO many pictures and screenshots I could have included, but we all know what has been going on through the show and this is just a small reminder of that. *pictures are not mine*

Struggling with college and work

It's been a long time since I wrote something real here, so I'm back. And I'm all over the place cause I want to tell you everything and I'm not really sure what that everything is. Weird. Anyhow... As you all know, I'm a student at college/uni. And my family is kinda going through a tough time with money and I know I'm not easy to work with when it comes to money. I've never spend more than I thought was acceptable and I do know all the hard work that is behind that money. I don't take money for granted, but I do like a lot of stuff and I like buying and having them. For that reason, I want to get some part-time job to earn my own money and to stop being a burden to my parents. However, it's not that easy. There are some jobs that I really don't want to do (waitress, promotor and call center), but usually that's the only thing they offer. OK, there are other jobs too, of course. But (!) I can't do any of them. Not even the ones I don't want to do. Why? Because I'm a full time student and, at my college, that means I have to be there for 8 or more hours plus 2 hours of traveling to and from college. Like today, I have 5 hours of college, but in the middle of the day so I can't do the morning shift nor the afternoon shift. And it's so freaking frustrated. And if you want to comment something like: "Who really wants to work will find something." or "These are just excuses.", I ask you not to. Really. Because I'm actually trying hard to manage college by itself and getting a job with it is just so hard.

OK, I had more to say about this, but I think I've been scammed over the phone and I'm so distracted and nervous about it. I can't think about anything else right now...

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Please?

Today: 24.2.2017.

Doing: went to college, watched YouTube bloggers/vloggers, ate - I basically did nothing.

Mood: great!!!!

Favorite person: my friend Matt - you're not even surprised by this anymore, right?

Thinking about: how I need to workout today and I really don't feel like it, how I haven't written anything here as I've been so busy, how annoyed I am with my family eating my favorite cake

Missing: going out - I was out recently with my friends and I had such a great time I want to do it every single day

Loving: that I'm getting a fresh start on Monday and that I'll be home alone in just few hours

Hating: rain that thought it's OK to come back even though I'm already in my spring mood

New discovery: coloring actually makes me relax and forget about everything

Listening to: Lana Del Rey - Love (this was trending on YouTube so I checked it out)

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Storytime: This dream still haunts me

Hey. Welcome to my second story. So, this happened few weeks ago, but I guess it was so strong that I still think about it on daily basis.

Note: Have in mind this was a dream and it did happen quite a long time ago so I won't remember all the details. This note was written last. I also wrote this for two days cause I couldn't do it without crying. I wrote about 2 sentences in a row before crying. I had long pauses to calm down. Maybe it's all over the place. I don't know.

So I dreamed that my parents were asking me about my college grades and exams and, as usual, I said it was all good without long explanations. Then they asked me why I'm not going out with my friends, why I'm not in a relationship. I just smiled and said I don't know. There were some other questions before I snapped. Now I remember my speech so here it is. "Because I'm ashamed. I'm ashamed of myself, of what I do, of what I like, of what I look like. I'm scared to go outside. I'm ashamed that I'm over 20 and I look like this. And I can't cook, dance, drive or do anything a "normal" person my age should. I'm afraid that my friends think I'm stupid cause I don't follow politics or sports. I'm scared cause I have no self-esteem to pull me back up. So I hold it in. And you have no idea. It's scares me that I'm over 20 and I have no idea what I'm doing. But most of all I'm scared that you're ashamed. I'm scared that I'm not making you proud. I'm scared that nothing I do is good enough. Like I'm not meeting your expectations. And I want to. I'm really trying. But yes, I'm ashamed of myself. And you have no idea. I'm sorry."
And then I woke up.

I know this was just a dream and, as most dreams are, this was so random and probably not even related to the fake questions my parents were asking. I have no idea how this came up, but the fact that I woke up in tears and really disturbed, the fact that I'm still disturbed 2 weeks later and that I cried during writing this tells me this is the truth. And I do believe that most people my age do have this thoughts every now and then because, let's be honest, we have no idea what we're doing with our life. I can still hear myself yelling "I'm ashamed!" in my dream.
Note: Not to worry. I'm not depressed and I'm not this bad all the time. This hits me every now and then. But when it does, it's pretty bad.

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Any similar thoughts? How old are you? Can you manage life?