Sleeping disorder

Hello you all :)

Before I start this, I want you all to know that I know sleeping disorder is an actual disease and I'm not trying to make fun of anybody nor I wish to insult anyone in any way. Can I start now? Great. Oh, yeah. Also, before I start, I know I don't really have a sleeping disorder, it was just the perfect simple title to write. Now I'm starting. While I was in elementary school, I could stay up for hours and hours. Of course, as long as my parents would allow me to (till some age I don't remember). This became normal in high school. I would stay up really late and get up really early. And the great thing was I had no problems with it for four years. I would be a person going to school directly from a party. (This actually happened only twice.) Anyhow, 4 to 5 hours of sleep would be just enough for me. I'll just say that I slept for 17 hours and 50 minutes in a week (school trip) where a normal person sleeps for around 56 hours (7 days x 8 hours of sleep each day). I didn't have any problems or side effects. (I'm not saying you should try this neither that this is good for you. I worked like that.) I felt great being able to live like that. Of course, I liked it, so it had to stop. It all changed when I got into college. Every year has a different schedule and neither one of them was really good for me but they weren't too bad either. I have no idea what has happened but I don't have those superpowers of not sleeping any more. I will stay up late and I will get up early just because I have to. I did it before. The difference is, I get tired during the day and I didn't use to have that feeling. I would usually go through a crisis at one point in a day and afterwards I would be ready for whatever. Now I get tired and that feeling stays with me until I get to bed. Of course, then I can't fall asleep because my mind is messed up. I'm dead tired and my eyes hurt when I close them. Does this happen to anyone else? Of course, I'm blaming college for all of this. Haha. Maybe it's because the classes are really boring and either really early in the morning or late in the evening. Of course, there are those which last whole day. Oh, they're my favorite. With all this being said, I bet you're thinking I sleep in every chance I get. Wrong! I never sleep. OK, that's obviously a lie. I still sleep around 5 to 6 hours a day (sometimes more, sometimes less). I am tired but I don't sleep. Personally, I think sleep is a waste of time. And I can't sleep during the day. My brain knows it's day outside no matter how dark my room is and I can't sleep. And I don't want to. I have a night for that. And I like to stay up late watching something or reading. And I like to get up early so I wouldn't lose a day. So I'm, in general, tired. (But I'll never let it stop me from doing anything! I always overcome my tiredness.)
If you want to share your thoughts on sleep and being tired, please leave your comment below.

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Oh, that's me in class. It's everybody actually.

Read between the lines 3

Hello. It's been a long time since I wrote about songs, so I'm here to correct that mistake. (Read between the lines tag is on the right under "Labels".) This time, I won't write about powerful songs and their meaningful lyrics. Today my topic is s-e-x. I should probably tell you that this is not recommended for persons under the age of 12?

1. Extreme - More Than Words. He doesn't want her to say she loves him. She needs to prove him her love with something else than words. I won't say anything else.
2. Frankie Goes To Hollywood - Relax. Shoot in the right direction, go after your intention... But just relax. Don't do it. He's coming. Hmm, yeah, real relaxation song, right?
3. Flo Rida - Whistle. Oh seriously? You didn't see this one? Yeah, Flo Rida is not teaching us how to actually whistle. He was 33 when this song was released; I think he already knows how to whistle. There's some other thing people do with lips like that. And half-naked people in the video should have been only a confirmation.
4. The Pointer Sisters - I'm So Excited. Now, I love this song and I still sing it in any life moment when I'm excited about something but this is a song about that special night. If you ask me, this is a good song about it. It's actually teaching us there need to be feelings involved, it's OK to be nervous and excited. After all, you'll remember this your whole life.
5. Aqua - Barbie girl. She says she is blond bimbo girl and she wants him to dress in anything tight. He can touch her, play with her, do whatever he wants. And then: "Let us do it again"?
6. Christina Aguilera - Genie in a Bottle. She didn't do it quite a long time and now she is looking for a new guy. She is hormonal and can't wait for a song to be over so they can go. And before anything, he needs to make a right move and she has to like it. Also, he needs to rub her the right way...
7. Village People - YMCA. Well, of course. This is ultimate party song, but have you known what it is really about? As far as I know YMCA is a motel/hotel/something where young gay men would go to feel accepted and right. Now, I'm not getting into gay-OK or gay-not OK, but this is clearly a song about sex. It's being sung by 6 men in different suits (usually sexy - police officer, fire fighter, construction worker,...).
8. Donna Summer - Hot Stuff. This song doesn't have any hidden message. She is at home, bored, looking for somebody to have fun with. She is looking for a hot lover. And she needs it this evening!

All of the above.

Do tell me what you think about this and if you have any suggestions for new "Read between the lines" post, leave a comment below. You can either name some songs and I'll try to make a category for them or tell me the title and category and I'll put together a list.

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I can wear a hat now!

Hello :)

You all know (if you've been reading my blog) that I'm 20 years old. So this topic may be a bit strange to you but let's start at the beginning. For my whole life I've been stressing about what others thought of me. Don't get me wrong, it's still kinda important to me what others think of me, but now I'm almost a whole person and it's not likely I'll change anytime soon. But I'm not going to write about how I behave or what I think of myself. I am talking about my clothes. This has also been a topic of few of my posts. As I'm growing up, my style is changing. Not very drastically but there is some difference between now and then. I would see what is cool and modern and I would buy that but I would never wear it because I was worried I looked like a freak and people would stare at me. There aren't many pieces of clothing like this; I have one T-shirt, few blouses, one jeans... I also always wanted dresses which I've never worn because... I don't know why. Thankfully these weren't expensive stuff so I don't feel bad as much. However, I am pissed at myself for doing that. Now, after 20 years of living and, let's say, 10 years of picking out clothes on my own, I can proudly say I would wear a hat in public. You may think it's stupid, but wearing hats was a big deal to me. I have to brag a bit and say that I do look great with any kind of a hat, but lately I really want to get floppy or matine hat (this is taken from Google as I do not know any other hat name than fedora and cowboy). As I'm almost sure these are not real names of the hats, I'll put a picture below explaining what they should look like. (I just spend half an hour trying to find some legit classification but I couldn't. And I think it's all floppy hats and wide fedora, but what do I know. Pictures below.) Knowing my past with clothes, my mother does not believe me when I say I would actually wear it so she doesn't want to buy me one. Thank God I have my own money so I'll buy it myself. Of course, there are more on my wishlist but there's plenty of time to buy them all. Haha. Here are some other pieces I recently bought and I was once scared to wear them:

• "winter" dress with 3/4 sleeves (I wanted long sleeves, but I'll build up to it)
• over-the-knee socks (hopefully will look great with this dress and both high and low boots)
• dark red jeans
• sleeveless jacket but with fur (fake fur, of course)
• blazers (I have dark blue one, but I've really stepped out of my comfort zone with peach one)
• over-the-knee boots

Hats - round top (fedora style top acceptable), wide, one floppy, one firm.

Friends in the past

I'm going to write a bit about my friends from my past. Most of us just grew apart, but since we once had some kind of relationship, I can not leave them out of my Family and Friends series (link is to the intro post about this).

• Martha. She was once my best friend. I met her the first day of my elementary school. It didn't take us long to realize we were very much alike. Even though we spent every day together, true friendship was born around 4th grade (we were 10 or 11). We went everywhere together. I was more at her place than my own. We went all the way from walking with our dolls to make-up, boys and going out. Eventually, she changed and, I have to be honest, I didn't like the change. We still remained good friends with more visible dislikes more often. We finally parted somewhere in the first grade of high school (freshmen as you would say). I seriously think I need to call her.
• Petra and Joseph. They are brother ans sister. They are younger than me but we grew up together. They live in a village where my grandparents live so we spent every summer, winter and occasionally some other seasons together. It didn't matter that we haven't seen each other for the whole school semester because it was like I never left. We were together every day from 8 a.m. till 10 p.m. The only time I wasn't at their place was during lunch (if their grandma cooked something I didn't eat). Eventually our families got in a huge fight and we were kinda caught up in all that. Unfortunately, we haven't seen each other for about 7 years now. I still think about them. A lot.
• Antonija. (It's Anthony, only female.) She came into my class in the 5th grade if I'm not mistaken. She was the opposite of me. She was wild, kinda rude, a smoker, a bit of a darker,... I have no idea how, but we got really close. We could talk about almost anything. But our friendship was a bit weird, so to say. And then we got to high school. We haven't talked since.
• Mathea. She was my first best friend in my life. Those were the times when a doll and some leaves were enough to make us interested. We could make a game out of anything. We were about 7 to 9 years old when we hung out. I would go to her place very often. I still remember how her living room looked. What now puzzles me is whether she lived only with her grandma. At that point, I was too young to connect the dots or ask something like that. But now, as I remember it, I remember only her grandma always being around. She transferred to a different school in the time when we didn't have cell phones or Facebook or anything like that. I had her phone number only. I tried it few times and then gave up. I have no idea what's happened with her. (And I tried to find her on social networks. I didn't succeed.)

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I don't want to accept it.

10 things to know about Croatia and Croats

Hello :) Since I live here, it would only be fair to invite you to visit my beautiful country. But (there's always a "but"), before you do, here are some basic information you should know.

• Trivia. We are in Europe. The capital is Zagreb. We have 7 airports (not all in the link are international) so you can visit almost any part of Croatia. There are 3 parts: lowland (Slavonia), central  - Croatia proper (Zagreb and surroundings, Lika and Gorski kotar (Mountain district) and seaside (Istria, Kvarner and Dalmatia). Have in mind this isn't a legit division, it's only how I see it.
• Size. Croatia is a small country. And we know it. You do not have to point it out every few seconds. In spite of being small, Croatia has it all - sea, mountains and valleys. We have sun in the summer and snow in the winter. You could almost say we are perfect.
• Prices. Well it's not easy to talk about money but here's how I see it. For most of the Croats prices are high, but tourists usually do not have that problem. Everybody I've seen as a tourist in my country has said that prices are either really low or acceptable and reasonable.
• Languages. We do speak a lot of languages and we speak them quite well as Croats can adjust their pronunciation to almost any language. I'm not saying that every person knows 10 languages but we do try to speak the language you know if you ask us something (unlike for e.g. Italians who speak only Italian or French guys who won't say a word of any other language). However, older people probably don't know any other language than Croatian. Btw, Croatian is really hard to learn if you are a foreigner.
• Way of life. If you like to live in a rush, visit the capital - Zagreb. For more easy way of life, visit any other part of Croatia, preferably seaside (Dalmatia mostly). All jokes aside, this is actually a fact. People in Zagreb are way more active than other people (not referring to jogging or fitness). People in north Croatia (e.g. Zagorje and Međimurje) and east Croatia (Slavonia) work more in the fields and they are usually always doing something (job in the morning, taking care of domestic animals and field work in the afternoon - all day, every day).
• War. "Where were you in '91?" This is a question young generations take as a joke but to older people it actually can mean something. There was a war between Croats and Serbs (I'm not getting into this right now) but it was really important where you were in 1991. Be careful how and who you ask that question. Or don't bring it up at all!
• Nightlife. Croats do enjoy going out. Fridays and Saturdays are usual days to go out but since you get into college, you adjust your nights out according to your schedule. There's a great chance you'll see a bunch of people out on Monday, Thursday or any day for that matter.
• Religion. Croats are mostly Christian. We do not chase around people who are not Christian but it's still kinda strange if a person says they're different religion. This doesn't apply on tourists. We know tourists come from all around so we do not have any issues with different religions.
• Style. Most Croats have neutral style, if that means anything to you. I'm thinking jeans and a shirt. There are rockers, hippies, punkers, goth, emo and all other styles of life that you can imagine. We do not hate different people but we will look at you if your style isn't "neutral". Not because we don't approve, just because you're different. As we will look at you, we will also look away like nothing has happened.
• Coffee. Having a coffee with someone and sitting in a coffee shop for three hours is normal here. If you have that time. That's why the city is full in, usually, the Saturday morning. If you're looking for better prices of it, go in cafes which are not directly in the center of the city (e.g. main squares, near the sea).

I've put down 10 basic things you need to know. If you want to know anything else, fell free to comment below and ask anything. Have in mind that this doesn't apply to all Croats. This was written in general and mostly from my point of view. And, yes, I know I've written half of the names in Croatian half in English. Just let it be.

Just Google Croatia and you'll want to visit us!!

I will write another post about what to visit in Croatia and another one about what to visit in Zagreb as I live here.

Stay good till then. Bye :*

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