Today: 21.5.2016.

Doing: my plan was to write a college paper, but I started watching TV shows so that's about all I'll do today (and I'll try not to feel guilty haha)

Mood: it's morning and I got few good hours of sleep so I'm all good

Favorite person: I've seen nobody and I've heard from nobody, so I'll name my friend Joan who visited last night

Thinking about: as I'm home alone, my biggest worry now is what I'm gonna eat for lunch and dinner - thank God I went grocery shopping yesterday

Missing: more money (if it's not sleep than it's money - college life!)

Loving: my new beauty products I recently got

Hating: rainy days and cold weather - it's almost the end of the May for God's sake

New discovery: you can clean your suede shoes with an eraser (amazing!)

Listening to: Sergey Lazarev - You Are The Only One (it was Eurovision song contest recently and I'm still caught in all of that) - should have been the winner!

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Infinity dreams award!

Hello :)

Since this is not beauty related, I decided to post it here, on my personal blog, rather than on my other, beauty and fashion one.

I read the new post by Annie from Annie's Perception and in the end she stated that anyone who reads it is nominated for this award, so here I go.

Rules:

• thank the blogger who tagged you
• write 11 facts about yourself
• answer 11 questions
• make 11 questions for other bloggers (you're gonna nominate)
• use IDA picture
• tag 11 bloggers to do this

11 facts about me:

• I can't do chit-chats. I don't know how to and I'm socially awkward like that.
• I "fall in love" with basically every guy that's nice to me cause I'm messed up and have deeper problems.
• It took me around 19 years to start to like myself and my personal appearance. I'm still not completely there yet, but I'm working on it.
• I don't drink pure milk because I hate the taste of it. However, I love diary products.
• I have two gay best friends. I only wrote this because I'm still in shock as I recently found out about it. (Please don't get into this too much.)
• I'm finishing (I hope) my third year of college.
• I have a problem with dandruff and I've been trying to get rid of it for the past 10 years. Nothing seems to be working! (Help please.)
• I love having my pictures taken (alone or with friends), but I almost never post them anywhere.
• Unfortunately for my wallet, I love it all. I don't have only one "fetish", I love bags, clothes, jewelry, shoes and make-up. Also, I never have the room for all of it, but I still buy new stuff.
• My favorite cartoon is Tom & Jerry. My favorite princess is Cinderella.
• My favorite hero is Batman.

11 questions Annie asked:

• What is favorite part of blogging?

I don't know actually. I love taking pictures (or creating them or finding them), I like to write it all down. I think I like the most the feeling as I'm actually talking to someone about the topics I like. I love the conversation in my head. :)

• How would you describe your friends?

Depends on the days, but: funny, optimistic, realistic, supportive, honest (as far as I know).

• What are 5 words that describe you?

Hmm, I always struggle with describing myself. I would say: shy, creative, supportive, stubborn, patient.

• What couldn’t you live without?

Friends and family, of course. But if we're talking material stuff... Toys! I have a lot of teddy bears and other stuffed animals which I collected during my childhood and, since I'm not allowed to have a living pet, they are my pets and friends. (Maybe that's weird since I'm 21, but I don't care. Haha)

• What’s the proudest moment of your life?

Now, I'd like to say getting into high school or college or something like that, but I think I was the proudest when I first actually liked my reflection in the mirror and when I wore a mini-skirt and a bathing suit in front of my whole class on a school trip.

• Are you proud of who you are or would you want to change it?

I am. Personality wise, I think I'm OK person. I'd like to either change my looks or the way I see myself. Other than that, I'd like to be less socially awkward.

• Who’s your role model?

I should say my mom/dad or some other family member? They all are, my brother the most! But I wrote once (we had a school project to do this) Honey Daniels. It's a movie character played by Jessica Alba in the movie Honey. To quote myself (I just found the paper): "I chose her because she's pretty, decisive, smart and kind. From her, I can learn how to be decisive and make it in life. I'd like to be more courageous. That would help me rule my life and be sure of what I do." Of course, I've changed since this was written (about 6 years ago), but all of this still stands.

• Would you ever work for free?

I wouldn't work in a company for free, but I would be OK with no paycheck if I applied to volunteer.

• Who’s the most important person in your life and why?

Well, there's my whole family, but if I really had to choose, I'd say my brother. He's been my role model, my best friend, my companion in all the stupid thing we did...

• If you could have anything. What’s the thing you desire the most?

Oh God, that's a tough one. I wish for the love of my life, I wish for a good job I'm after, I wish for a house with back yard so I could have pets, I wish for a new car. There are lots of things I want, but I'd have to go with love. I want a boyfriend/fiance/husband. (Not today, some day.)

• What would you be prepared to give in order to get the thing from question 10?

Not my principles and not my family and friends. Everything else could be considered. :)

Finally my 11 questions for my nominees:

1. Do you prefer cartoons or real people on the screen? What's your favorite genre?
2. What's your earliest memory?
3. Do you prefer movies or books in general (not comparing the exact book with its film adaptation)?
4. Do you have any tattoos? If yes, what are they? If no, if you had to get a tattoo, what would it be?
5. What's your favorite color? Any special reason for it?
6. What's your wish at this exact moment (to go out and eat, to wash your hair, to travel,... anything!)?
7. Are you more an indoor person or an outdoor person?
8. What's your favorite game and why (I was going for computer/Internet games)?
9. How do you see your future (husband, pets, kids, village or big city, job, money,...)?
10. If you could meet any person in the world, who would it be, why, and would would be the one question to ask them?
11. If I'd ask you to say something positive to the world in general, what would it be?

I hope you're OK with these, so I'll move on to my favorite nominees:

• Tina from Tea is for Tina
• Danni from Button Baker
• Emma from Emma's Bookery
• Shehzadi from Hey Beauty Bae
• Shelby from It's Shelby Marie
• Millie from Modish Rambling
• Annie from Anniens
• Chloe from Snug Corner
• Jemma from The Sweetpea Life
• Andrea from Anchy - We're This

I know I'm only suppose to nominee 11 people, but I love more than 11 blogs and people, so I added some more below. These are the extra few of them I'd like to take this, but they're not obligated to do so (as the above ones are! haha).

• Tamzin from Through New Eyes
• Saira from Through the Glitter Glass
• Kallie from But First, Coffee
• Leta from Life Of The Nerdy Me
• Kiara from Lion in the Wild
• Merzy from Merzy's Corner
• Lauren from Minnie Mouse Chic
• Kimberley from The Chic Confidential

That's all folks :) :*

Little things that make me happy :)

We all have some moments in life which happen quite often and we still like them like they happened for the first time. (Everything is better the first time, right?) Anyhow, I've been thinking about what little, everyday things make me happy. Here's a list.

• Turning off my laptop. I love this for two reasons. First, it means that I'm done with my work and I can go out or, usually, to sleep. Second is maybe even more important for me. My laptop produces some weird noises after being turned on for a long time (it's overheating). So I have an external cooler which is so freaking annoying and loud. Turning off my laptop leaves only silence in the room.
• Finding that perfect water temperature in the shower. I try to find one for the first 5 minutes of the shower (that's actually a lot of time while in the shower). The first water stream I let on myself is the greatest!
• Hearing some good song you know on the radio. I think this is a pretty common one, but some people don't understand that it's better to hear that one song on the radio than to play it on the Internet. I love this one even more if I'm home alone so I can sing along and dance.
• Meeting my friends all at the same time. As I go to college, and all my friends come from different sides, I love when we manage to come at the exact same time. We never plan this, so that makes it great.
• Getting something in the mail just for me. Since I live with my parents, most of the mail is for them (bills and commercials, usually), so I love seeing my name on something. This is usually when I order something from eBay or some other site so the joy is doubled since I'm getting my order too.

What usual, everyday things make you happy? Tell me all about it in the comment section below :)

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Meeting your idols!

Hi :)
(I wrote this few days ago.)

I just got back from a concert and this is ideal topic to write right now. You'll see that "idols" is a very strong word and that's not how I would describe a person I'm gonna talk about, but you'll get it.

So, I went to this concert with my friend and we saw a person we both kinda like (I'm in love, of course) and we wanted to take pictures with him. We saw he was already asked by some people so that shouldn't have been weird, right? OK, we got to him, asked for a photo and he said yes, but it was so irritated and already annoyed "yes". I mean, he is kinda a celebrity now (a contestant of a singing show). You could see that all people (male and female) wanted to take pictures with him. Not with the recent winner or anybody else. That had to mean something! And he only took few pictures before us, so you would assume he's not pissed off just yet. The way he agreed to take a picture made me feel annoyed and sad. He's half-celebrity and he's already like this to his "fans"? Not to make myself the most important human being here, but he'll make money and live his dream because of me. Because of all of his future fans. You have to appreciate it. I guess it's annoying having to smile all the time and take pictures with random people. I get it all. But as a celebrity, I don't think you can afford to show it. Keep it to your self. I'm not a person that would stop people in the street or when they're eating or sitting in a coffee shop so I think this was appropriate event to ask for a picture. Don't you? This is only few seconds of your life and to somebody, it's the best thing ever. Imagine if you met your real idol (favorite singer, actor or somebody else) and they were irritated to see you. How would you feel? I like this guy for those few songs he chose, for him being cute and for the beautiful voice he has. Luckily, I don't have stronger feelings. Otherwise, I would be pretty crushed. I'm all for famous people to have their privacy, but when you come to a concert, red carpet or something like that, you can expect people getting to you and interacting with you.

It's possible I got the wrong impression and maybe he's the nicest person ever, but I'm most likely never going to find that out so I'll live the rest of my life thinking that he was annoyed by me at the moment. Well, thanks. Just what I needed.

Do you get me? Any thoughts? 

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  Concert halls!

How can you erase them from the phonebook?

Hello.

I've been going through my phone the other day and, for some unknown reason, I opened my phonebook and went through it. I saw some names I haven't called or seen in years. Some of those people, I'm not sure even know I exist. For some of them I don't even know how I got the number since we never talked or hung out. But some people were my good friends. And I have their addresses, e-mails, home phones (when that was popular)... I haven't called 90% of these people in ages. Those I met in elementary school I haven't called for about 7 years now and I haven't got in touch with them for 5 years for sure. I have few friends I regularly see and that's it. Same is with high school and any other group of people. So, why do I keep their phone number which could be wrong by now? Because I can't let go. Having their numbers reminds me that I used to have so many people in my life. Some of them I only called once in my life (I remember the exact example and conversation haha), but that makes me happy. I wanted to be one of the cool kids, the popular one. I never was. So, keeping their numbers reminds me that I once talked to some people or that we were that good to exchange numbers or something like that. It's pathetic and desperate since I'm 21 now, but this feeling has the same strength as it used to have. And it's getting worse? I have no idea. I think I'm in that weird phase (where I've been for the last 15 years) when I still need approval from other people and I still want to be one of the cool kids. Erasing phone numbers would be like erasing memories. Some non-existent memories, but still pretty important in my mind. (This makes no sense!?) Also, there's that small chance I'll need some of those people and their number might come in handy. That will probably never happen because I don't even know what most of those people are doing in their life, but I said there's a small chance. Really small. There's also that feeling that I have a number of a popular kid. I can't explain it, but it's like this is making me better than other people. Not really because my current friends don't know those popular kids so no one cares, but I know. The more I'm writing this, the more I see how silly and weird it is. But there are some stuff you know are crazy and completely irrelevant, but it's usually stronger than you. Just to be clear in the end, I'm not obsessed with this, but as I stumbled upon this, I thought I would write it all down.

Do you have some weird things/doings like this? I'd love to know I'm not alone.

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Cool kids. And me on the left.