Today: 25.11.2018.

Doing: shopping (there are still some great discounts here), DIYing some Christmas decor and cleaning my room

Mood: how can I be in a bad mood while shopping and preparing for December?

Favorite person: my mom - she went everywhere with me and gave fashion advice so I love that

Thinking about: which wrapping paper to buy and how to wrap presents I already bought and also about next week's shifts

Missing: my brother who is on a trip far away

Loving: that I actually haven't had a care in the world on my mind for the past few days

Hating: not having more money, but that's pretty obvious by now

New discovery: I found some YouTubers to follow which I followed years ago and then stopped cause I didn't like their content anymore and now I rediscovered them and I love it

Listening to: Eurythmics - I Saved the World Today (my bus driver was singing this the other day so it stuck with me)

How's your day going so far?

Why I wear black 99% of the time

If you've been reading this blog for some time, you know I have many issues with self image and I'm usually self-conscious about a lot of things, some being very normal and natural. If you haven't been reading it, I just told you a bit about my state of mind. There's more about it under the tab "Personal posts" or label "My weight loss" which was paused, but I'm going to write more soon.

So, there are basically 3 reasons why I love wearing black. First is I sweat a lot. I know sweat is totally normal and natural body response to lots of internal and external stimuli. However, I hate those sweat stains on me! Surprisingly, I don't mind them at all on other people because I know it's normal and I never wish to shame people for having them because that's not really something you can control. But when it comes to me, I'm the total opposite. I feel like I need to stop it and hide it. Sweat is visible on all colors and also white. However, it's not visible on black. So, that's one reason.

I always wanted to hide my body in my clothes.

The other one is my self-esteem. It's world-wide-known fact that black makes you look slimmer. I don't know how our brain gets tricked, but it is how it is. Since my goal is to look slimmer, without actually dieting or working out, of course, I tend to wear more black clothes. I used to wear all fitted clothes because I didn't want to add to my fat, but I now I learned how to style some clothes and what looks good on me so I can afford to wear baggy clothes too. It's usually all black, of course.

The last reason is just a matter of time management. I usually go for black clothes because they're easier to style. I can literally wear black everywhere and to all occasions. Wearing jeans and black top is my go-to combination. I'm actually pretty good with time management, but there are times I'm in a hurry or I like to concentrate on other stuff rather than spending an hour in front of my closet.

What's your favorite color to wear? I actually really like red on me, but for the given reasons, I don't wear it often.

Should kids earn their money?

This post was definitely sparkled while I was reading some comments on Facebook and realized most parents there were wrong. Now, I'm not a parent so you could say not to get involved in this and also who am I to give advice on parenting... However, I'm closer to being a kid than adult. I also know how I was raised and how would I act or feel if it was any different.

The first issue was: Should kids work and earn their money? Of course, we're talking about some yard sales, cookie sales, selling their drawings, painting someone's fence or clearing out the neighbor's garage; we're not talking about actual jobs. While parents think it should teach kids how to value money, I think it just takes away from them being kids. If, for example, a kid loves to draw, trying to sell those paintings is not a bad idea, but it could put a pressure at the kid and that's never good. Also, all of their friends would be in a park playing and this poor kid would be sorting old stuff in a garage.

"If they want something, they should work for it." shouldn't start before high school. Or later.

Another thing I saw was: I pay my kid to do some chores. Again, same as the above, I think this takes away from them being just kids, but this case is a bit different. Teaching kids they should help around is a good thing and giving them small tasks shouldn't be too difficult, but paying them for it is also wrong in my opinion. If it's about household chores, they should do it without getting payed. They're a part of the family too and everybody should contribute to chores. Nobody is going to pay these kids for doing chores when they grow up, so I think they would be pretty disappointed in how life works when you grow up.

They'll have enough time to be stressed out and worry about money. 

My point is: let the kids be the kids. Just that. I'm looking at myself and my childhood. I never got paid for anything I did around the house. To be honest, I didn't do much, almost anything, cause my mom wanted us to enjoy the play as much as my brother and I could. As we grew up she asked us to go to the store or take the trash out and we did it. No struggle, no payment. I don't know how things would turn up if it was any different in our house, but from today's point of view, I think I would resent my parents for making me think I had to bring money in the household when I was still learning basic math and how to write.

If you want your kid to help you with something, just ask nicely and try to make it fun.

Parents decide to have a baby or not to have one. If you do have one, or two or ten, it's your responsibility to take care of them. They shouldn't earn money for themselves at the age of 10. There's a whole life in head of them, they'll, unless they have super rich parents, have the chance to experience all kinds of money struggles and stress in general. Childhood is the only time when they can still believe in the good, that people are nice and mean well, that everything is unicorns and rainbows. Don't ruin it for them. If you can make it fun, like selling lemonade with their friends every once in a while, that's what I'd call acceptable. They need to have their friends and fun beside them.

What are your thoughts? Are you a parent? If yes, how do you deal with this topic?

I'm more than my social media.

I don't think this is a new topic to discuss because ever since social media started, especially YouTube and Instagram, people have been trying to make a line between just Internet world and real world. However, there are still people that suffer cause they feel not good enough or people that just don't get who other people are because all they see are social media posts. I got few comments, not mean ones, just comments, from my actual friends that they never thought I would be a social media person, the one that posts herself so much. So, naturally, I have to discuss it here...

I would say most accurate representation of my life is Facebook. I have pictures with my family and friends there and there are like 99% of people there I actually know. And I believe my family and friends are the biggest part of my life. But there's also my education, my trips, stuff I like which show my interests... However, over the years I learned not to post every single thing so, of course, there's a lot more going on in my head and in my life than what I post there.

...so Twitter is already a weird platform that shows a whole other part of my life, but not all of it.

If you look at my Instagram, I'm narcissistic bit*h that loves herself to the point I'm arranging photoshoots to look at my self. There's some truth to this, explained in the post First, let me take a selfie..., but that's not he whole story. What I don't show there is the fact that I've been hanging out with my friends for hours prior to that picture being taken and I haven't looked at my phone once while I was with them. Not all of my friends are OK with their pictures being online so I just don't post them at all. My family too. Especially because Instagram is a lot more different from Facebook in terms of which people are following me (and who I follow too, of course). Also, I don't post my messy hair, me being a wreck when the alarm goes off at 5 a.m., me being scared I'm going to mess up at work, etc.

Another platform I'm on is Twitter. I opened that because of my blogs and now I'm glad I did cause I met some awesome people there. However, if you just look at my profile, it's usually blog promotion or random stuff from my life. Just random thoughts. It's also quite accurate, but there are no friends there, events I visited, family at all. Also, no one in real life knows about my blogs so Twitter is already a weird platform that shows a whole other part of my life, but not all of it.

Also, I always post what I love or like, but I tailor it for the "audience". I know my friends aren't into nails so I don't post them on Facebook, only the manicures I'm extremely proud of. There are a lot of examples, but I'm going to make this even longer post.

Do you worry that you sometimes portray yourself as something you're not really? Are you worried what people think of you based on your profiles?

See you next Sunday ♥