Why not having Netflix is a good thing

I'm not sure when Netflix became such a huge thing, but it's definitely out there now. It seems great, there are tons of movies and TV shows that you maybe would not watch ever, but are great or just great for background noise when you're at home. Netflix in my country is not a big thing. Not as big as in the UK or USA I would say. I know it's definitely here because of the young generations influenced by these two countries and the Internet and YouTube... However, I don't think older people, as in my parent's age, even know what Netflix is.

My family, including me of course, doesn't use Netflix. I know some of my friends do, but not me. There are times when I wish I could watch some TV show that's the biggest deal right now, but I never actually got the urge to install/buy it. With today's Internet, I don't have the need. There are sites that provide us with all these shows and most movies. For other, there's TV and cinema.

If I had Netflix I think the rest of my life would suffer.

I'm quite big TV show addict. I usually wait till the show has ended completely or so it has at least few seasons done until I start watching it cause I binge watch everything. And by binge watch I mean watching 10 episodes a day if I can. I'm also late with everything because of this. I started watching The Vampire Diaries when they were doing 4th season I think, Gossip Girl when they were on the last one and so on. However, I don't care. There are definitely shows I've been watching from the beginning and watch one episode a week, but that's usually not my style.

Now, how does Netflix fit into this? If I had Netflix I think the rest of my life would suffer. This now sounds like I have no control of my life which is totally not true, but watching TV shows is a big love of mine and I know I would be spending more time in front of the TV. I also don't go after the hype when the world goes crazy, like for example, for Game of Thrones or Riverdale (which I would only watch to see Luke Perry). Maybe that's why I don't miss Netflix as much. I can always find shows I like to watch somewhere online.

For me personally, I don't think I'll ever need Netflix. I don't even want it. There's so much I do on my laptop, Internet in general and on TV that I "lose" enough time. I don't need another reason or a 100 new shows to watch to stay inside. Haha. I wonder if so many people have it cause it's cool and new and you just have to have it or they actually really wanted it/needed it.

What are your thoughts? Do you have Netflix? Why? Also, recommend me some TV shows to watch! Haha!

See you next Sunday ♥

When there's too much bad sh*t in short time

Note: This post was written a long time ago. I wrote the skeleton of it and couldn't actually get my thoughts together and words to explain everything so I just left it like this. Even now, I don't know where I was going with this, but I'm giving you my raw, unedited thoughts.

Hey. Today's post is going to be about being sick, in hospital and dying so if you can't read about those stuff, stop now. OK, so...
A lot has happened regarding these topics in very short period of time, somewhere around a year. I know a year sounds like a long time, but when you have to deal with the above, whole life isn't enough. You also have to know that I'm overly emotional person when it comes to strong feelings and serious situations like this.
My dad's friend, whom I really liked and considered more as an uncle when I was younger, has passed away just few weeks after finding out he has some, obviously deadly, disease. This really messed me up because I thought about him every time I listened to one band as we were always listening to them when he came over. I somehow always thought he would be here forever and we would still have some of our inside jokes. I still think about him a lot, more than anyone expects or thinks I do.
In January of 2015 I wrote about how my teacher died (you can read about that here) and how it messed me up pretty bad. In the beginning of this year my grandma went to hospital. It was a routine surgery, but we were still very worried. Not long after her hospital visit, my grandpa had a stroke and he was in a pretty bad condition. He, thankfully, got out after few months of therapy. He's still not OK, and we know he'll never be fully recovered, but I'm just happy to have him back. And let me just tell you it's really hard being around him and knowing he's only he half of a man he used to be. He's also really struggling with all of this so it's even harder.
Next, one of my best friends ended up in the hospital. Again, it was a routine surgery and he is fine, but having to call paramedics in the middle of the night would have anybody nervous. Now I found out his mom is in the hospital. She'll be OK, definitely, but it's hard on him so it's hard on me too.
Few weeks ago, one of my best friend's grandma passed away. She was old and sick for quite a long time, but it still took me by surprise for some reason. A whole one life, really close to me, is now gone. Few months ago we found out that my brother's best friend, and my very good friend's mother had cancer and, although she was taking medications and doing everything she was supposed to do by the doctors, she was really bad and passed away. She was only 50 years old. His grandpa, his mother's father, passed away today.
I'm not sure how to end this. I don't even have a point to all of this. I just needed to share it with the world, I guess. I don't know. I wanna end this with somehow positive thinking to cherish every moment, with every person you care about.

Feel free to share any story like this if you want to. Also, if you have any words of comfort or motivation, share those as well...

See you next Sunday ♥

The Fall Tag by Hailey

No, Hailey, I won't call it 'autumn' cause we say 'fall' here and 'autumn' is actually harder to pronounce. Haha. If you don't know what I'm talking about, Hailey from the blog The Undateable Girl's Diary made her own tag post The Fall Tag with her own questions.

She knows I love tag posts so I'm, of course, tagged to answer her questions. Also, since I'm doing 'fall favorites' post on my other blog, tag is written here. For once, I won't tag anyone in particular, but if you like this idea, definitely leave links to your posts in the comments and tag the lovely Hailey so we thank her for her effort in making this. There are 10 questions so let's go.

Two of my colleagues may be dating

Hi. It's currently 11 p.m. and I'm about to go to sleep, but there's something on my mind. What's a better way to think about it some more, than to write it down?

So, there's this guy... I know what you're thinking, but let me stop you right there. It's not like that. So, there's this guy I met about 7 months ago as we go to the same classes. We sometimes bump into each other while going to or from college and sometimes sit together (in a row with a 100 other people). We talk a bit. I really like him as a person. Just like that. I haven't really thought about friend-zone or future husband here. (Can't I just have a colleague?) I feel the need to really emphasize that I don't have a crush on him cause that's quite important for this story. Anyhow. Few weeks back, I noticed that he and my other colleague kinda have a thing, but it's really subtle and if I was to judge only based on what I saw, people could say that we're in a relationship too cause we all act the same in classes. However, what made me thinking is the fact that this girl doesn't really communicate with anyone and is quite reserved. So seeing them laughing and doing some stuff together indicated there may be a thing between them. Today I witnessed something that just maybe confirmed my thoughts that they're together. If this is true, I'm happy for them. But! (You had to know there was a 'but' coming...) I wonder. We all met under the same conditions, in the same environment. And if I think about it, I had the benefit of hanging out with him more as we do commute together. So, at some point she had to impress him more. Which is totally fine, but I don't understand how. (Sounds stupid, I know.) Obviously he had to make some move towards her and I wonder why that wasn't me. Get it? I'm not jealous now if they are even dating, but I wonder what's wrong with me. Haha. If he made a move towards me, I think I would follow cause I like him. But I haven't really thought about it till now. I know there's probably a simple answer like: "I'm not his type." or "They just clicked." which is also fine, but... You know... This sounds really messed up and a bit confusing, but I can't express it any better. Haha.

Basically, my question is why are guys going around me toward my friends/colleagues? This is not the first time. I know it must be me, cause they can't all be idiots/crazy or whatever you want to call them...

Comment if you understood anything here. I have a feeling I messed it up too much ☺

See you next Sunday ♥