Why have I gone missing on the Internet?

First of all, does anybody else write the word "Internet" with the capital letter? I remember my elementary school teacher saying this is the correct way and I've been writing it like this ever since... I'm pretty sure it's not necessary, but it's my habit now. Do you have any things like this that you do and feel like nobody else does?

This all indicated I had no time to rest at all this week.

Wow, this was a random beginning, but hey, I needed to start somewhere, right? So, I don't know whether you follow me anywhere and if you even noticed, but I've gone completely MIA on pretty much every social media platform. I haven't even turned on my laptop in 5 days which is a big thing because I don't usually do Internet stuff on my phone and I watch some TV shows on my laptop too. This all indicated I had no time to rest at all this week.

I've been employed only a week now and my body can't handle it anymore.

And why is this, you ask? Well, times are changing and I'm becoming an adult which is still weird and it feels like it came out of nowhere, even though I'm 24. Jesus, I'm old. The point of this ramble, however, is the fact that I got the job!! This may sound exciting, and I am grateful for it, but I work since 8 a.m. till 8 p.m. It also takes me an hour to get there and then an hour to get back. So I'm awake from 6 a.m. till about 11 p.m. and I die. I've been employed for only a week now and my body can't handle it anymore. It feels like I've been working for 10 years...

...because we're not that rich and I didn't know if I could ever pay them back...

To start at the beginning, I'm pretty lucky to be able to find a job so soon after graduation and ending my student job. I've been at home, jobless, for only a month and a half. Now, I do feel bad for immediately falling into this working routine because I wanted to explore some places, go somewhere, enjoy just lazy days walking around, shopping, doing some arts and crafts projects and so on, but I soon realized I had no money for traveling which was definitely on the top of my list. I also couldn't ask my parents for money because we're not that rich and I didn't know if I could ever pay them back...

...but this is literally the second best thing that could happen...

Also, this crazy shift time should end in about 2 or 3 weeks so I just need to endure that (help) and then I'll have normal 8-hour shift each day. The good thing is I absolutely love my new job. It's not the one I originally wanted and I'll still try out for my dream job if I ever get the opportunity, but this is literally the second best thing that could happen career wise. I love the job, the atmosphere, people... I love it all! And I know how lucky I am to be able to say that...

...I expect some drama here...

I'm not really on board with those "just imagine it, put your thoughts out there and it'll happen" things so I'm not gonna even try to say it. I would say this is just my luck. I happened to play my cards well at the right time and that's all there is to it. Also, since I work with a lot of people, I expect some drama here and there so you'll probably read more of my office stories here. We'll see how this will go. I'll also really try to get back to posting on Sundays because I actually really love writing for this blog. I'll just have to manage my weekend time better which, I guess, is really the adult life. Welcome me.

Source: https://giphy.com/explore/i-got-the-job

Tell me, do you work? Are you still in school or looking for a job? Share some advice on getting a job, first days at work, etc.

Movie review: Molly Maxwell

Source: https://www.imdb.com/title/tt2388705/

Info: Molly Maxwell is a 2013 romance movie starring Lola Tash as Molly, high school student, and Charlie Carrick as Ben, Molly's teacher and mentor. It was written and directed by Sara St. Onge. Movie is 1 hour and 30 minutes long.

Note: Plot has all spoilers, impression some and recommendation none.

Source: http://www.catherinelutes.com/molly-maxwell-feature-film-trailer/

Plot: Movie is set up at Phoenix Progressive School where students are encouraged to find their own (weird) passion and to stand out in the most creative way no matter which subjects they choose. We soon meet Molly, a student who seems to be not interested in anything but spending time with her friends and waiting for school to be over. She also has quite a friendly relationship with the school director who tells her she needs to find an extra activity to pass the grade. She had no idea what she would like, but to the rescue comes her new English teacher Ben who encourages her to take up photography as he has seen her taking photos of her friends. He also becomes her mentor and sets up a dark room and teaches Molly how do develop photos. One day, in a need of some inspiration, Molly suggests going to an island near by. Ben agrees after some time and they spend a great day together followed by an awkward ferry ride home. Even though Ben asked her not to, Molly develops photos of him and her that day and decides to personally deliver some. When he invites her into his apartment, the two have quite awkward conversation and silences in between. Suddenly, Molly decides to take her clothes off and Ben slowly approaches her. The two share a moment, which was also awkward because Molly put her head under his shirt, but also sweet and almost innocent. They don't say a word and she leaves. Since he is still her teacher, they share some moments in the school and dark room, but Ben is well aware of the rules and the consequences. When she visits him again, he tries to avoid their chemistry, but soon kisses her and makes up a rule: clothing stays on. So they kiss, cuddle and then she leaves again. They meet again at his place and Molly tries to have sex with Ben, but he sticks to his rule and Molly admits she actually has no idea what she is doing. School director suspects there's something more happening between them so he fires Ben and invited Molly's parents who ground her. With their final attempt to sleep together, Ben again ends it knowing how the things are. Molly, obviously hurt, goes to a party and sleeps with a random guy, texts Ben she is no longer a virgin which she soon regrets. They meet one last time at a pub where he's preforming. Molly is asked to leave in the middle of the show because she's under-aged.

Source: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Gs1Nx2uk7rQ

My impression: I don't know. You know I'm a sucker for romance, but there was something missing here. First off, if she was in college, I wouldn't mind it, but they're portraying it like she is 16 (I think) and he is 30 or something which is kinda gross to me. However, they do have a great chemistry. I loved it how he stayed true to himself and they didn't actually have sex because it's different from what most movies would do. He knows it's wrong and he could be fired and go to jail for this, but he is also torn cause he feels something for her too. Although, I would say the fact that she was in his apartment cuddled up in a blanket was already crossing a line. I love how awkward their scenes were, because that's exactly what I would expect from a young student and her teacher if they were ever to be in this kind of relationship. I also really liked that her mom stood by her in the end because she saw that all was actually good, he wasn't harming her and Molly just needed to find her path. However, I missed some more plot and the ending was really not for me. I need a part 2 now because I actually want them to meet in a few years.

Source: https://bit.ly/2SrKIXW

Recommendation: I read a lot of reviews online and they're all positive. I would recommend this movie because it's more real than some other teenage movies with this plot. It also shows how you can't pick love or attraction. I mentioned it above that I was missing more plot and I personally skipped scenes with her friends, but you may like them cause it shows how friends can easily fall apart when there's a new person or boyfriend in the picture.

Read some of my earlier movie reviews to see if we have some similar taste in movies.

I found this movie as a recommendation on Instagram. I don't regret watching it. What do you think of it?

Things that need to die in 2019

I don't know how to feel about the end of 2018... If I look at a year in general, it's wasn't anything special, but if I cut it in pieces: I finished college, worked at my favorite place ever, got to the highest point regarding my self-esteem... Maybe I should write an entire post reflecting on the past year? Tell me if you want some shorter review.

This past year was crazy on a global scale and I won't even go into politics, environment problems or anything that serious. It's just not for me. But light topics and social media are my thing. So here's a list of things we need to leave behind.

• apologizing for having stuff/opportunities

If you have something you know a lot of people would want or if you get an opportunity you wanted, don't apologize for it. You can wish for some people to be as lucky as you are, but enjoy every moment you have. I shouldn't apologize for having a phone, laptop, for traveling... whatever. You can be considerate and not brag, but being happy about your possessions and accomplishments is perfectly OK.

• apologizing for having some imperfections

Now, I watch a lot of youtubers and usually girls apologize for their chapped nails, messy hair or something like that and guys for, I don't know wearing shorts or something. I personally hate hate chapped nails and it's really not something I can stand on myself and I'll definitely notice them on somebody, but why is there a need to apologize for it? You're not offending anyone by not repainting them. This is just an example, but I think you get the picture.

• lip liners in darker shades than lipstick

Total shift from this deep stuff, I had to include some make-up here. There's a lot of beauty stuff I just don't get and dislike very much, but this trend has had me puzzled for a year. How did this become a trend and why? There's not much I can say here, just please stop.

• cropped everything

And now on to a bit of fashion... I get trends and how everything changes pretty fast in fashion industry, but 2018 has brought this copped trend and absolutely everything is cropped now. Jeans, sweatpants, all tops... There are some cropped models I actually like, but we, and by "we" I mean "I", need less cropped and more normal clothes. 

• being upset about follow/unfollow

This comes from being a blogger, very active on Twitter and trying to grow on Instagram. I see a lot of people complaining about follow-unfollow game and I don't understand it. I couldn't care less if someone is doing it to me. Why does it bother people? If you have the time to follow and unfollow me every single day, be my guest. I will follow you for 2 reasons only: you're somebody I know (a friend) or I like your content. There's no "he followed me so I have to follow back" in my books.

• being offended by everything

I saved the best for last. This past year was absolutely crazy and over-the-top with being offended. People were offended by almost everything and also on behalf of other people too. We definitely need to stop it. I can't say anything without writing paragraphs of explaining myself and I'm sick of it. I get it the times have changed and what used to be considered a joke is today offensive and I'll admit some jokes take it too far, but not everything is an insult or attack on humanity. People need to chill.

Source: https://www.caa.govt.nz/about-us/2018-2019-holiday-hours/

Name 2 things that you want out of your life in 2019!